Thursday, June 25, 2015

Week 2 of Summer Vacation


 When I say I am going to do something, I do it.  Give me a task, and I will see it through to the end, including the epilogue.

Perseverance is my super power.

Until it turns into my kryptonite.

When I put on my horse blinders to get the job done, I don’t always evaluate how things are going. I become so focused that I don’t pay attention to the signals that it might not be working.

So tired that I’m dizzy?  Push through.  Shallow breath from pushing through? Keep going.  There is a finish line to cross (and if I’m first, that’s even better).

When I said that I wanted to embrace my inner fun parent , I really didn’t mean embrace.  I meant a bear hug so fierce that I wouldn’t even notice if anyone was suffocating.

Even me.

By the end of week 2 of summer vacation, that’s where I’m at.  Exhausted.  Out of breath.

We did a whole summer’s worth of stuff in two weeks.


At our staycation in Ann Arbor, we started with sandwiches from Zingerman’s.

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This sandwich made me so happy.


Then we took a stroll around Ann Arbor and the University of Michigan campus.

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She was curious about what the campus looked like. . . 
although,we are not what you would call a die hard U of M family.



Afterwards, we went to the Ann Arbor Hands-On Museum which was awesome!

erin janda rawlings mommy on the spot week 2 of summer vacation ann arbor hands-on museum michigan
I seriously lack in the science knowledge department.
I love that this place filled in some blanks with a lot of fun.


erin janda rawlings mommy on the spot week 2 of summer vacation ann arbor hands-on museum michigan
Standing inside a giant bubble can now be checked off
on the ultimate lifetime experience list.


Then we had some fun visiting my family that lives near Ann Arbor and ate some really delicious ice cream.

We’ve also spent some time in the after-hours clinic for an infected mosquito bite.

We celebrated Father’s Day.

erin janda rawlings mommy on the spot week 2 of summer vacation father's day


We have had play dates at the park.

Play dates at home.

And appointments.

Pool time.

Tennis lessons.

Swim practices and meets.

T-ball games.

Oh, we also went to the Imagine Dragons concert – our first family concert!


3 out of 4 loved it! One of us fell asleep.
During the concert.  Maybe next time.


All in addition to home renovation projects like the kitchen 



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Our new granite for the countertops.



and patio steps.
erin janda rawlings mommy on the spot week 2 of summer vacation patio step renovation
Delays due to ant colonies and the original steps made from incorrect materials.
Now we have to order new pavers .
I wanted to cry.


I often wonder why I am so damn tired and feel mentally stretched to the limit, but when I write all this down it becomes crystal clear.

What is not crystal clear is why I continue down this path of being a fun parent when it is stressing me out.

I think it comes down to this: after years of being confined by baby/toddler routines and then constricted by the school schedule, I want to make the most of our free time.

I want to travel!

I want the kids to play with their friends!

I want to spontaneously eat ice cream for dinner!

I want to make memories that will last a lifetime! 

I want to feel alive!

But I’m tired.  Although I want my kids to have a great summer and I want to do all of the things, it’s not necessarily filling up my soul.

Moving forward, I am going to fight the urge to fill up all of the free time.

Take deep breaths and recharge.

Summer in an endurance sport, and I cannot be burned out before July.