This week, I am thankful
for running, nature, and yoga.
Gah! I cringe just typing that because 10 years
ago I would have walked away from any conversation in which someone pledged her
affinity to any of those things.
But 10 years ago, I
didn’t really know how to take care of myself.
I was a big ball of hot, reactive energy. At the time, I viewed it as passion, but the
truth was I just didn’t have the tools manage my feelings in a responsible
way. I was anxious all the time, whether
it was at work or planning a wedding or being newly married.
I hated anything that
made me have to deal with my anxiety which made running, nature, and yoga unbearable. Being alone with my thoughts was like a
hamster running on a wheel – lots of activity, but accomplishing nothing.
This eventually caught
up with me after Thomas was born. I’ve
talked about being on medication and being misdiagnosed, but either way, I was
set upon my course of finding inner peace.
So slowly by trial and
lots and lots of error, I found my magic combo: running outside and yoga. **
The running part I get;
I used to run a lot as a kid, and it just felt good. However, I didn’t grow up
with an innate connection to nature. In
fact, I have a vivid childhood memory of going outside and was immediately
disgusted by all the bugs flying around our wooded backyard. Horrified, I went inside and read a book.
I am not sure where this
newfound fondness to nature came from, but there is something so comforting
about it now.
I mean, look at these
pics from my run:
Yoga, well, yoga has definitely has toned my shoulders. I have been going so regularly these days,
Red Lotus Yoga is kind of like my Cheers bar.
I run late almost every Friday.
One Friday, the teacher and the receptionist said, “Erin, don’t
worry. We signed you in. Go on to class.”
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I love starting my Friday off with Eliza and Alyssa! Alyssa is one of my favorite teachers EVER! |
I was taken surprise by
how deeply comforted this simple gesture made me feel.
Anyway, I don’t go to
church, but at yoga, I do feel a connection to something bigger than
myself. When I am quiet and encouraged
to set an intention, I am able to feel peaceful and able to find a sense of
gratitude that is naturally very difficult for me.
I am not saying that
every day I’m floating on a blissful cloud of inner peace, but I do notice
little changes that make me feel more in charge of my emotions that have, in
turn, given me a better chance at feeling more at peace.
So if you were to tell
me I’d love running outside and practicing yoga so much that I am now a
regular at the yoga studio, I would have laughed a cynical laugh.
Thankfully, I am not
that person anymore.
**This combo works for
me. Everyone’s magic combo is different,
and I commend anyone who is able to figure that out, whatever that combo may
be.