I am starting to feel the darkness. I haven’t felt that heaviness creeping around in the corners of my mind like this in quite some time. I see the shadows in my peripheral vision, and I start to get nervous because I do not want to loose my grip and end up on the couch for the rest of the winter season.
I could blame it on the weather. It has been freezing with bitter wind chill factors, and so. much. snow. Last month, I felt that I was one snow day away from transforming into Jack from The Shining.
I could blame it on work. Some unexpected things required immediate attention, forcing me to put some things on the back burner.
I could blame it on the lack of sleep since there has been a protest in sleeping through the night with both kids.
I am going to say it was a combo of all of these things that have deprived me of routine.
I thrive on routine. I feel focused with routine. Without it, I wander around wondering when the grocery shopping and laundry will get done (it won't) or when I will feel inspired to write (I don't).
This lack of routine has me at a loss for words. I feel that I have so much to say and write, but it gets lost while I flounder between home and work responsibilities.
Since writing is essential to my sanity, I decided to take matters into my own hands.
This week I am going to a local writing group and I decided to take this online writing class with Jenna at the Word Cellar.
I am hoping to find my words underneath all of this muckiness.
In the meantime, I am trying to pay extra close attention to the small details. Observing the beauty of everyday moments helps me stay connected, keeping me from letting my mind wander into the darkness.
|At the ear doctor. I love his hat, cape, and mittens.|
How do you rediscover your passion? How do you keep your sanity during these harsh winter months?